July 30, 2005
This Day That Year
Getting Laid Off was a concept that was totally alien to me especially because of my Indian upbringing. I was always taught that if one did their part honestly & correctly, there was nothing that would hurt them and that they will always be rewarded for their efforts, how naive, I was. Well, there is a first time for everything, and when I got laid off for the first time, it took many days for me to come to terms with reality. Of course being on a H1 visa here in the US, only compounded the trauma (yes that’s the right word for expressing how it felt like). But like with all experiences I walked away from this LayOff experience with rich rewards (applicable literally due to the severence pay
).
It was exactly this day that year. July 30th 2001, my Black Monday, even though it was 4 years ago, I have learnt to live with the same insecure feeling everyday now. Not that I feel insecure about competition or talent around me, I feel insecure about being exploited. And how vulnerable you feel after putting in your best efforts. It has definitely taught me to take notice and control of the people/environment/events around me much more. While, this is still an “illusionary secure feeling“, alteast I live with more hightened awareness of what is about to hit me.
Before I start sounding totally pathetic, and lose the attention of you my dear reader, let me admit the “jobless days” were also some of my most creative days. And here for the first time, is the public release of some creative content of those days.
The first is a Blues song titled H1-B blues, adapted and recomposed to express my helpless situation, delivered in the voice of Your’s Truly.
The second, well.. wait for a Hindi Version tomorrow, (I have some issues encoding it in mp3 right now - Aaarrghhh..!!#$@%#, here is what it sounds like right now)
Till then Blues be with You !!



